relentless

Oh, do I have character flaws.  What I wouldn't give to be Billy Budd right now.  His was kinda big, but at least it was just one.  Yea, he was a character not a person, don't get technical.  This one, I had always thought of as a positive.  There is no such thing as always, you know.  Only moments.  Right, back to the subject.  Relentless is my name, and I am sticking to it.  I mean cheese on bread, toasted and buttered, I am not perfect and will not ever be.  I can and will do my best.  But consciousness is a bitch, ey.  I know this is just a thing that I do not a thing that I am.  That means that I now have to curb my enthusiasm.  I have to try and control myself in another way.  I have a new task.
Ok, task accepted, now what?  Seriously.  It seems that the more I learn, the less possible it all seems.  No one said it would be easy or fun.  My brain is wild and uncontrolled, but also open.  I am willing to learn and try.
I am writing just to write right now and do not think that is the direction I want to go.  I am writing to ease some steam.  Not such a bad thing.  tiring, relenting.