He doesn't read this and neither should you.
Listen up friends, or don't. Advice is the worst advice you can get. Don't get me wrong, I do appreciate it. I know it all comes from a place of love but it just served to confuse me. Also, I know I asked. That is probably precisely the point. If I had more confidence in my instincts, i wouldn't have to ask. I would just do. Thanks anyway, really this is all my fault.
Self fulfilling prophecies, are they real? This discussion can go in many directions. I will choose one (or two) not sure yet. Look for a reason to succeed and you will succeed. Look for a reason to fail, guess what? I was telling my dear friend the other day regarding work: You start looking for a job, and you have already said goodbye to the one you have now. Maybe that is narrow. I feel that once you have decided that your situation is bad enough to look for a new one, the old one has ended. I would spell it out for you but I am not in the mood. You go after something you want or think you want (what is the difference there?). You think you are being positive, cool, whatever. There is something in the back of your head. You know, that thing that says: um dude, you aren't smart enough, you are bald, fat, old, mentally ill, damaged, uneducated, etc. You know deficient. You say to yourself that you aren't listening to that voice, you are bigger than that; but you hear it just fine. Right there you are fucked, right? the grave has been dug and it is just waiting for you to fall into it.
Ah, but wait. There is one weapon against this. Awareness. Recognition. This is how you say FUCK YOU! to that fucking asshole who happens to reside inside your head. FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU. I am not listening this time. I am not succeeding or failing, I am living. And I am doing the best I can, so you can keep your shit ass opinions to yourself.
This is what I have chosen. no more advice, no bull shit self fulfilling prophecies, just me doing what I do. And doing a pretty fucking good job at it. I know I should watch my mouth but I am fucking pissed, deal or leave.
PEACE yo, to you and me.
When things become manifest
To the ardent meditating brahmin,
All one's doubts then vanish since one understands
Each thing along with its cause.
Special shout out to Marc. Sorry for what is going on with you. But I am most sorry that I have been so self centered to not have noticed. I am thankful to have you as a friend and that you are who you are. Hang tough, you rule and you will pull through.
Listen up friends, or don't. Advice is the worst advice you can get. Don't get me wrong, I do appreciate it. I know it all comes from a place of love but it just served to confuse me. Also, I know I asked. That is probably precisely the point. If I had more confidence in my instincts, i wouldn't have to ask. I would just do. Thanks anyway, really this is all my fault.
Self fulfilling prophecies, are they real? This discussion can go in many directions. I will choose one (or two) not sure yet. Look for a reason to succeed and you will succeed. Look for a reason to fail, guess what? I was telling my dear friend the other day regarding work: You start looking for a job, and you have already said goodbye to the one you have now. Maybe that is narrow. I feel that once you have decided that your situation is bad enough to look for a new one, the old one has ended. I would spell it out for you but I am not in the mood. You go after something you want or think you want (what is the difference there?). You think you are being positive, cool, whatever. There is something in the back of your head. You know, that thing that says: um dude, you aren't smart enough, you are bald, fat, old, mentally ill, damaged, uneducated, etc. You know deficient. You say to yourself that you aren't listening to that voice, you are bigger than that; but you hear it just fine. Right there you are fucked, right? the grave has been dug and it is just waiting for you to fall into it.
Ah, but wait. There is one weapon against this. Awareness. Recognition. This is how you say FUCK YOU! to that fucking asshole who happens to reside inside your head. FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU. I am not listening this time. I am not succeeding or failing, I am living. And I am doing the best I can, so you can keep your shit ass opinions to yourself.
This is what I have chosen. no more advice, no bull shit self fulfilling prophecies, just me doing what I do. And doing a pretty fucking good job at it. I know I should watch my mouth but I am fucking pissed, deal or leave.
PEACE yo, to you and me.
When things become manifest
To the ardent meditating brahmin,
All one's doubts then vanish since one understands
Each thing along with its cause.
Special shout out to Marc. Sorry for what is going on with you. But I am most sorry that I have been so self centered to not have noticed. I am thankful to have you as a friend and that you are who you are. Hang tough, you rule and you will pull through.
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