Thursday, October 30, 2008

Ok, maybe I am a bit stir crazy~~~~~~

Someone asked me today "are you getting restless?"  I answered no right away, No.  Well those right away answers may sometimes be right, but, and I know this is so unlike me, I thought about it a little more.  that question was right on, but I didn't  even realize it.  I am not restless with my job.  I am restless with my living situation.  I am sick of living out here secluded from my life;  secluded from my office; secluded from my aspirations.  I have 6 am meetings almost every morning.  By the time I am done with those meetings, I am basically stuck here.  I can not or,  will not, at that point get up and drive/train to my office in SF.  So I am stuck in this hole of an apartment for the rest of the day's work.  It sucks to work here.

And that isn't even really the point.  I have made a decision to move somewhere else.  I am biding time.  I am seldom good at that particular venture.  Decision has been made, time to go.

I am restless because I am sick of living here and am ready to move on. 

Ok, now that I have realized that, I can assimilate with it and make it a livable situation.  It is no longer a creature lurking behind me that others can see, but I just couldn't catch a glimps.  I got you now!

good are friends when need arises;
good is contentment with just what one has;
good is merit when life is at an end,
and good is the abandoning of all suffering.

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